Carnal Zen

~Finding the balance between earthly delight and spiritual enlightenment~

About

Carnal Zen is my forum to explore all the ideas, contradictions, religions and credit card bills that pepper my life.

The 5 year plan

I lurch the the 5-year plan question at unsuspecting job interviewees. I prod Mate and friends to choose a direction but now that I have to write it down as part of my grad school application - I’m choking. Fear of making a mistake isn’t nearly as daunting as accountability - Will I keep the promises and intentions I have set for myself? Really?

Do I fail myself if I am unwed or childless? Is there room to change my mind and stay in swampy South Florida if it meets my partners needs? Dreaming is feeling limiting and I don’t like it. Not one bit. Yet - ships without rudders don’t get anywhere at all.

I can’t afford a life coach right now and I’m not inclined to reach for the self help section at Barnes and Noble. I’m just trying to dream big without losing perspective.

It’s not the plan that is important, it’s the planning.

—Graeme Edwards