Carnal Zen is my forum to explore all the ideas, contradictions, religions and credit card bills that pepper my life.
Well, not the way we pictured it. That’s the thing about expectations. They can lead you astray. Expectations make you forget that outcomes don’t matter, distract you from remembering that you ARE happy. Happiness comes from inside. It doesn’t come from the one that got away, your mother’s acceptance, the ideal job. You are the source of [...]
As I’ve attested to before…I have the greatest friends in the WORLD. Yes they are scattered all over the place and WAY to far from me to see as much as I’d like but that doesn’t mean that distance grows between us. No matter how many weeks, months, years it’s been we pick up where [...]
Don’t make anyone a priority, if they only consider you an option
We’ve all done it in one way or another. Maybe you were a football widow, or she was married to her work. It happens….and one morning you wake up realizing that you’ve allowed yourself to become a second place priority to an iphone, [...]
Well maybe not “Pete” exactly, I don’t love anyone named Pete. Since I’ve been gone from internet land things have been brewing. I’m surprisingly calm, watching, waiting for the dust to settle. The big strong men in my life seem to be unraveled. Everyone is nearly halfway on their way to something these days. I [...]
When we gain independence we also lose that childhood ability to flee and find safety beneath our mothers wing. Even if the safety was only an illusion it was yours and it was treasured.
My little sister “A” lost her mother yesterday, a woman I wasn’t close with, but whom had always been A’s anchor and will be an [...]