Carnal Zen is my forum to explore all the ideas, contradictions, religions and credit card bills that pepper my life.
The amount of nothingness I have accomplished over the last week is astonishing, especially for me. There were entire days spent in PJ’s, countless hours of sleep and food network marathons. I did not journal, paint or even cook substantially…what I did do, in the nothingness, was let some new ideas bubble up.
I am now [...]
I am a spendthrift. I buy jeans used on eBay, only shop sales and clearance, and get my hair cut and colored by students at a cosmetology school. These practices are pragmatic. I live in an expensive place and don’t make a lot of money but there is a hidden cost in [...]
I watch Sophie as she sits by the door waiting patiently for her master to return. She won’t demand to know where he’s been or why he didn’t call, she’ll just enjoy his arrival with an enthusiasm humans reserve for weddings and mardi gras. Funny thing is she will do it every single day until [...]
Last night we watched the WORST movie ever. I’ll say up front - I got in trouble for putting Australia in our blockbuster queue. Mate is no fan of Nicole Kidman. There was really bad acting, cheeseball lines and they managed to make Hugh Jackman NOT look sexy when soapy. How is that possible?! The supposedly gorgeous [...]
Maybe I am precisely where I’m supposed to be.
It seems frenetic. There are many half finished projects, half read books and half baked ideas laying around this messy apartment. Still, I wanted more than anything to be camping this weekend and pouted, at least internally, when even Bush Gardens got vetoed.
Even now, I’m struggling to [...]