Carnal Zen is my forum to explore all the ideas, contradictions, religions and credit card bills that pepper my life.
Mich commented on my last post today. My words, my thoughts were confirmations she was waiting on from the universe. I was thrilled today to hear I’d been a conduit. A muse. I wish her the VERY best in her exciting new endeavor in whatever form it takes.
Now, back to me. An hour after getting that [...]
The bigger picture requires focus, perspective and a little distance. I made a significant decision today to part with a home I once loved. It was the proof of my independence and a place where I once felt safe. I’ve come to understand that it no longer serves me. Not as a safety net. Not as [...]
My dialogue is close to horrible. I love to read but could never write fiction. Plots feel too contrived, too forced. Yet, for as long as I can remember I have been writing scripts. Scripts for how my life would turn out, pages of text filled with expectations and storylines. Far too often I’ve attached [...]
If you’ve ever been pregnant, I apologize. I apologize for the people who invade your space and touch your belly without permission. I apologize for the unsolicited advice you received on how to eat, which vitamins to take or how to mother your child. I like to think of myself as a [...]
The word came in last night. After 4 long months Mate is coming home. Seven days. 168 hours. 10,080 minutes.
This morning I sprang from bed at daybreak. The smell of fresh coffee wafted through the house. Birds twittered noisily outside. I could not wipe the stupid grin off my [...]