Please for the love of all that is holy, do not say “home where you make it”. Whether I’ve “made it” on multiple coasts, in multiple countries, in numerous beds, houses, or the occassional state park has no bearing on where home is. Home is a feeling and I’m not feelin it.
Even after I say otherwise after a long day, I love my work - the challenges, the politics, the colleagues. This city is full of ugliness, high crime and crappy schools but I have good neighbors, great beaches, new friends and a slightly leaky roof protecting me and the furkids each night.
In O-town, I hated my work but I liked my boss and loved my condo. I had entire circles friendships that had evolved into kinships- the kind who scrub your bathtub and take turns buying you shots when you euthanize your pet cat.
New York has pizza, bagels, reliable transit and family. The winters are unforgiving and the prices unrelenting.
You will come to a place where the streets are not marked.
Some windows are lighted. But mostly they’re darked.
A place you could sprain both you elbow and chin!
Do you dare to stay out? Do you dare to go in?
How much can you lose? How much can you win?
And IF you go in, should you turn left or right…
or right-and-three-quarters? Or, maybe, not quite?
Or go around back and sneak in from behind?
Simple it’s not, I’m afraid you will find,
for a mind-maker-upper to make up his mind.
You can get so confused
that you’ll start in to race
down long wiggled roads at a break-necking pace
and grind on for miles across weirdish wild space,
headed, I fear, toward a most useless place.
The Waiting Place…” ~Dr. SuessHow is it that Dr. Suess is still the one who gets it? I have neither the energy nor the direction for another new beginning right now…. so I find myself at the southeast corner of Now & Later Avenues. U turns are prohibited.
I think one of the most difficult things to do is sit with it, in that limbo of a “waiting place”. Been there.. not fun…and all I could do was just wait it out.
Great post, as always.
Suzy
Suzy
August 21st, 2008
What happens in the book after the waiting place?
Michelle O'Neil
August 21st, 2008