Carnal Zen

I used to spend my Sundays in dread, knowing Monday meant complaining clients and long conference calls.  It was a dissapointing way to spend the day of rest. 

Last night, on the last eve of my vacation, I dreamt of work.  My brain was not dreading the return, simply preparing, organizing thoughts and today I admit - I checked in for the first time during this vacation.  I am ready for my life, the warm puppy breath, the flurry of work emails and perceptions of crisis that exist back home, whether or not I am there.  We somehow get stuck thinking the world needs us…but we leave, and the sky doesn’t fall.  Sometimes our ego takes a hit but vacation has given me perspective and relief.

Participation in life is voluntary.  Enjoyment is voluntary.  We choose to escape and we choose to return.  I am ready to do so without desperation without wishing this perfect vacation was neverending.  I am grateful for having chosen a life I look forward to.

Thank you everyone for your warm birthday wishes!

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